Sleep. Please Come Back To Me. I Miss You.

Seriously.  This has got to stop.  I’m not sure when it first started, but I haven’t gotten a solid night’s sleep in I-can’t-tell-you-how-long.

I don’t know what’s causing the problems.  Although like just about everyone, I have some anxiety,but it’s not what I’m thinking about in the middle of the night.  Maybe hormone fluctuations have something to do with it, but fortunately, if hormones are a part of this, they are NOT affecting my blood sugar.  And for that, I’m grateful.  Anyway, it’s not clear to me what the problem is between me and sleep.  But lately, it hasn’t been a symbiotic relationship.

I don’t have a problem falling asleep, but staying asleep the duration of an entire night?  Forget about it.  I usually go to sleep around 11:30/midnight, and wake up feeling bright eyed and bushy tailed around 3:30am.  I toss and turn.  Finally fall back asleep after what seems like about an hour or so, and then it happens again around 5am.  And there’s just no way I’m the kind of girl that likes to start her day at 5am.  Nor am I the kind of girl that functions well on a mere 5 hours of sleep.

I’ve tried all sorts of remedies- mostly natural, and even some not natural because lately, I’ve gotten desperate!  Here’s a list, off the top of my head, of the things I’ve tried to help me stay asleep during the night.

*warm baths with epsom salt (baths have always been a ritual of mine, but lately I’ve added in epsom salt and lavender oils)

*avoid screens (tv, computer, phone) as bed time approaches

*no caffeine beyond 2pm

*ear plugs and eye mask

*sniffing/rubbing on my temples some mix of essential oils that was given to me labeled “for sleep”

*this supplement that has melatonin, l-theanine and botanicals

*a magnesium supplement

*Ambien (Yep.  I’ve heard scary stories about Ambien, but again- I’m now desperate enough to try just about anything that might help.) (And yes, I’m going to write a blog post on this, specifically, soon.)

If any of these things have helped, it’s been so subtle, I haven’t noticed.  I still wake up around 3 or 4am feeling wide awake.

I’ve been listening to podcasts, and reading articles about how to get a healthy sleep routine going.  I’m taking any and all recommendations.  The new idea I’m trying this week that I just heard some sleep doctor talking about is: get OUT of bed if I’m not sleeping.  He said we need our brain to associate the bed with SLEEP (or sex), not with tossing and turning.  So, if you wake up, his advice is to go to another room, keep the light low, and do something like read until you feel tired enough to go back into the bedroom and fall asleep.  I’ve tried that for the last few nights, and while I like getting in the extra hours of reading, I’m not sure it’s helping me change my sleep routine. In fact, I fear that it might be ingraining that 3am wakeup call even deeper into my book-loving brain.

Like I said, my sleep issues don’t seem to be directly hurting my blood sugar control or my diabetes in general.  BUT, it’s well researched how vital sleep is to our overall health.  Lately, I’ve had problems with my shoulder (supposedly tendonitus), my hand/wrist (supposedly carpel tunnel) and neck pain in general.  I’ve said out loud, “I feel like I’m falling apart all of the sudden.”  And when I think about my sleep- or lack thereof, it makes sense that this would be the case. SO: It’s important to me that I figure this out.  My goal is to start sleeping a minimum of 7 hours each night. Right now, that sounds very lofty.  But it’s just sleep I’m talking about here.  SLEEP.  Something I love.  Something I want.  Something I need. I CAN DO THIS.

Right?

I’m taking all tips, recommendations and advice if you have any to offer.

#goals

Being Patient with Type 1

I haven’t had any clearly defined complications due to having lived with Type 1 for over 20 years.  And I’m seriously grateful for that.  BUT from time to time, I have little ailments that I wonder… Is this connected to being a Type 1?

My A1c tends to be anywhere from about 5.5% to 6.3%, and as time goes by and technology improves, it tends to be lower as the years go by.  I work hard and obsess over keeping my blood sugars in range, but still, I have spikes and drops in my blood sugars on a daily basis.  So, I’m far from perfect when it comes to blood sugar control.

In the past, I’ve had to have two surgeries for trigger finger.  One, for my left pinky, and the other, for my right thumb (ouch. that one was a bitch.) Before I finally got the surgery, I tried cortizone shots.  But they only helped for a short period of time, and then the trigger finger would return. The surgery, in my opinion anyway, was actually less painful than the shots. And, once you have the surgery, the problem doesn’t return. YAY!  I have read about the correlation between diabetes and trigger finger.  It has to do with inflammation.  Who knows, maybe I would have had this problem regardless, but I suspect Type 1 played a pretty big role in it.

The surgeon I used for my finger trigger insinuated that I would heal quickly from the surgery, but both times, that was not the case.  And again, I wonder, am I a slower to heal because of my Type 1?  Even though my blood sugar control is good?

Lately, I’ve been having problems with my right shoulder. Not from an injury, but just over time, it’s gotten more and more sensitive, and my range of motion has become more limited.  I got an MRI, and learned that I have bursitus and tendonitus.  Again, an inflammation problem.  And again, I wonder… is this related to my Type 1?

And even more lately- just the last 2 weeks- I’ve started having numbing in my left hand.  I’ve been to a doctor about it, a physical therapist about it, and had an MRI.  It could be related to spine problems I’ve had for many years, or it could be carpel tunnel.  (More on that later, in another post- but for now, that’s enough to make my point.) Again, I’m wondering, “Dammit.  Is THIS because of my diabetes?”

So although I’m not usually pissed at diabetes, sometimes I am.  Right now, my numb left hand is so pissed that it wants to punch my diabetes in the face.

But that anger isn’t going to do me any good.  It might even cause more inflammation, which I think this is all related to anyway.  Maybe inflamed emotions lead to more inflamed body parts.

Maybe it’s a good time to just breathe.  And remember that this is just a moment in time and it’s going to pass.  And things might be stiff, and tingly and even numb, but still- everything is working. (“That’s what she said!”)

I’m writing this today to remind myself how fortunate I am.  Fortunate for good insurance.  Fortunate that I have nothing too extreme going on that I am limited from enjoying my normal happy life. Fortunate that I have the money to get the therapies I choose to help me through this.  Fortunate to have friends I can call on (or text) to bitch to. It’s all good.  I know my body is working on healing.  Maybe it takes me a little longer to do that, but I can be patient.

Ask and You Shall Receive

On my last post, I wrote about how much I want a true to-it’s-claim, FAST acting insulin.  I was pretty sure I had read about one, but when I was doing my super speedy Google search the other day, I couldn’t find anything about it.

But today on Facebook I saw a post that not only did it exist, but it just got FDA approval.  YES.

THIS.  I want this.  The moment it’s available in the US.